It is one of those days. One of those weeks. February was one of those months, really. Where everything just gets away from you. Where pressures pile up and stress hits you in that gnawing pit that used to be your appetite for life.
You feel like you can’t do anything right, and then, in a self-fulfilling prophecy, you can’t. You drop the ball. Over and over again, until like raindrops on a window all of your failures join together to create one big puddle of suck.
Take a deep breath. You have a choice here. You can let these things keep piling. You can flood out your happiness with the raindrops of life.
Or you can choose to be happy. You can put your faith in something bigger than yourself, realize that in the course of your lifetime, these issues will not matter. That there will always be work and there will always be demanding relationships and there will always be times when you do not have your act together. But that it’s okay. It’s what makes you human.
And when you ground your humanity in faith that God’s plans for us are for our good, everything changes. You can ask yourself, “Self, what am I supposed to learn from this?” You can ask God, “God, what are you trying to show me here?”
And I think you’ll be surprised by the answers. In different times of my life, the lesson has been that I can do it, whatever it is. And right now, in this, the February of my discontent, the lesson has been that I can’t do it. Not alone; not without Jesus. And that has honestly been a better lesson.
So take heart, my fellow pupils. Spring is on the horizon.